last first game

Today was my very last "first game" in high school basketball and what a bust it was. probably the worse start I've ever had in my life. A measley 5 points to start my season off. I know I'm not suppose to be upset of what I've done and it was my fault for making stupid mistakes on the court. but to take me off the court after 2 mins of play and making one mistake in the 3rd quarter I'm out for the rest of the game? I know my role of being a leader on the court for being captain. But how can I help lead my team when you throw me on the bench. You just showed me today that "captain" was just a title you threw on my name just to make me feel good. I'd rather not be captain and be getting minutes. Looks just like last year all over again for me. Sitting on the bench waiting for an opportunity to play. I seem to be captain of the bench if anything. Oh and by the way, guess what? After today my parents have quit on me when it comes to basketball. Thanks I really wanted that too happen.